Dear God............

I keep a journal that I refer to as my DEAR GOD journal. I pray but I also keep the journal because sometimes I just want to write a letter to God. Lately life has been looking up. I have had moments that I just crash and cry like a baby. On my last visit to the neurologist, I was officially cleared and declared able to proceed with life as normal as can be. Oh I wanted to let the doctor know that I had been free of this disease when I asked God to strengthen my faith on this journey. My husband and I are looking forward to having children but there is this gnawing fear in the corner. I know God is there with us through it all. I know that "I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME".

THE BEST PART OF MY DAY IS............

You know how there is always one thing that makes the day seem perfect and it's always the smallest thing? My favorite part of the day is when we are both lounging on the couch and just talking about things that happened throughout the day. I look forward to those moments because it brings back the times before we started dating. I used to spend hours on the phone listening to his day at work. I am so glad that Glenn has finally realized how much the little things bring perfection to a day no matter how crazy it has been. I love looking at him and listening to him. As one can tell, I am hopelessly lost in this man and thankful for every second of it. I love my baby and there's nothing to it.

THANK YOU GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well yesterday we went for a follow up with the neurologist after my MRI. It was great news to find out it was nothing major. Apparently a tiny part of my right brain did not develop fully and it's now starting to cause minor problem. My options, correction, our options to control the missfiring nerves are really through medication and me making some changes in the way i view the world. The ultimate and severe solution is surgery but I know God is not going to let this get to that point. In fact He has been our guide and healer to the point that I am actually aware of the onset and ability to control it. I am just so elated as I watched the look on my husband and my mother's (clarabelle50@Gmail.com) face. The best part is that there is nothing wrong with starting a family. I don't know what other words I can use to describe the feeling I am going through and the sigh of relief I can hear the people around me breathing. All we can say is THANK YOU GOD FOR ALL THE ANSWERS!!!!!!!!!!